I would like to address an issue that is constantly appearing in my school during different phases of the year, and which appears to follow me around all the time….
Everyone is different, and everyone has their quirks and their limitations. However one thing that we do too often is to let other people’s opinions and criticisms consume us. We feel more influenced by what others think, than what we think ourselves. This does make a little sense to be honest, however I feel that some people just take it too far. I know I am different, you know you are different, there is no normal.
One thing that has led me to become largely annoyed over the previous weeks is the inability of some to accept that we do not go by the same lives. I have countless people tell me in the past week “well it’s your fault you can’t see the worksheet, you deal with it” and “you aren’t very popular so why would you not accept an invitation to come to my party – I’m trying to help you look cool”. First of all, may I just say I wouldn’t change who i am for anyone, and there are things that do prove challenging to deal with. However I wouldn’t be who I am without them. The person who thinks that I’m not cool, and not popular, has never before talked to me. They don’t know that I swim, dance, volunteer and have a seperate life away from school. And I enjoy these things, they help me learn and grow as a person, and I’ve had so many opportunities to make new friends and try other things. The reason I don’t really go to parties is because I don’t have the time and I don’t find these people interesting. The sad thing is that some people go to parties every week, as it is the only thing they do. That is their choice, and my choice is mine. If only more people would understand that it is okay to not follow the crowd, and to be your own person, and I am happy to have my small group of friends at school.
To the people who blame me for my visual impairment, and tell me to “deal with it”, I’ve been doing that all my life. I don’t just “deal with it” anyway. I embrace the fact that I perceive the world differently, and although it does take more time and effort to do things, that is okay. Life is too short to worry and be upset by your limitations, I learnt that a long time ago. Being visually impaired is part of who I am, and I feel it makes me more interesting. I’ve had challenges and setbacks, just like everyone else. However I have accepted these and overcome them.
To the people who tell me I’m boring, and that I look weird. You never talk to me unless you have to. You may ignore me and pretend I’m not in your class, but I am. I have opinions like you do, you just never hear them as you are too scared to talk to the “vi girl”. But I’m not just VI, I’m a student, I’m a girl, and I’m a human. Everyone deserves a certain level of common decency and respect, but unfortunately there are people in this world, in this generation, who are not able to look past the obvious. It is a shame this is true. I may not be able to talk about everything you want to, and I may not understand why people chose to do some things, but I can discuss ideas, and events, and many things inbetween. I do have a brain, and a heart, just like everyone else. But I am different, and that is nothing to be afraid of.
My message to the people who doubt me is; I am just as capable as living life to the fullest as you are, and I intend to do so. People believing I can not do things very well, and I don’t fit in with everyone else, I honestly don’t care. I have my life, and I will enjoy it. I have often spent hours crying because I couldn’t accept who I am, and I thought I was a disappointment to everyone who knew me. I used to deliberately skip social events because I thought I would embarrass everyone else, but I won’t do it anymore. I’m tired of sacrificing who I really am to make others feel better. I want to live, and those people who aren’t happy with that – you deal with it.
Love Violetkatie xx